Dear Mr. O,
I write about you a lot on this ol’ blog; I share stories about our first date (and how you bought me a bib). I write often about how much I love you, even going as far to consider putting up a billboard announcing my love. We cook together, spend time together, and it all gets documented on here.
But there is so much more that goes unmentioned. You do so much more for me than I regularly go into detail about. I’m writing this post as part of the Scintilla Project. The prompt for today suggests that no one does it alone, that we all have a support, a rescuer, a mentor. Thank you for being that for me. You support me, you educate me and you do– even though you push me to “rescue” myself– take care of me too.
When I tell you that you’re my best friend, I want you to know how much I mean it. I confide in you every day. You know my secrets, my desires, my frustrations, my beliefs. You accept me for who I am, and there is nothing more I could ask for from you.
One of the biggest lessons you’ve taught me in this time we’ve been together is to not let other people’s words or actions affect me. Well, this is a total lesson in process as I still get deeply hurt or saddened by certain situations, but it is probably one of the biggest lessons I could learn in life. I’ve spent most of my life trying to do my best by others: to do my best by the people I love, and also to do my best by the people who I don’t love or those who don’t love me. But to live like that isn’t realistic. To live like that is to live in other people’s expectations or to live in fear or anxiety. I want to be authentic. Which means, I want to live a life that is authentic to me, authentic to you and authentic to Wolverine. You two are my loves and I couldn’t ask for a better family.
Thank you for always lighting my way. You push me (You make me go to our room and close the door and do my homework. You’re such a good dad that it expands into all areas of your life). You honor my beliefs. You stand by me. You keep our relationship private. You are an active partner, enthusiastic of all my crazy ideas (like building leprechaun traps and skydiving in the future).
I’ve been thinking lately that the word “partner,” and the meaning behind it is such a beautiful thing. You are my life partner. You are my choice, and I am your choice. We have a love that is beautiful and fair and kind. We value each other’s existence. We value all the effort we each put in to our relationship.
I know I tell you over and over again how much I love you every single day, but I couldn’t say it enough times in my life to let you know how true it really is. You have been the greatest gift.
Thank you for every moment of every single day.
#Scintilla Day 2